Yeah… I’m nervous. I know that it mustn’t be shelved, but I’m just afraid. Maybe I shall pray? But... I think it doesn’t depend on God. It doesn’t depend on anything. On chance perhaps... o, damn, it’s so silly. I know that I will accept the results no matter what. Even if they are... bad. I have to be strong. For those who believe in me. ‘Cause personally I have very little belief in the reality of miracles left. I can’t even hope for something...
But the time has come. No matter what. No matter how. I have to... it’s just so difficult to be alone.

I keep on knocking on your door. But the only answer is silence… it’s getting tiresome, you know... someday I may just go away...